A lovely friend asked me on Christmas Day what my word of the year was. Something to sum up this year for me. I said âforgivenessâ, especially for myself for not being where I thought Iâd be and not recognising when I needed help.
That word could easily have been âgrowthâ: I still hold disappointment in myself that I didnât finish my studies, but Iâm also recognising that it was a necessity and actually put me on a different path.
I have been able to discover more about myself and to recognise opportunities to be kinder to myself. It also called into stark contrast a lot of the expectations I set for myself and how these contribute to my self image. Trying to let some of those go has been my focus towards the end of the year.
In the absence of studies Iâve naturally focused more on my career this year. I still need to be mindful to avoid trying to do all the things, but I can be proud of how Iâve grown professionally this year. Iâve delivered around twenty training sessions this year. While Iâm anxious before every session, I can allow myself to acknowledge I put an incredible amount of work in to each one and deliver good value for our clients. I will probably never feel like I know enough, but I have to give myself credit for my openness to learning and the value in sharing this with others.
Iâve also really enjoyed spending time at our allotment. Iâm pacing myself as itâs not a project to be completed in a weekend, but it has been so nice being outdoors and putting physical effort into that space. Iâm looking forward to reconnecting more with nature when we start planting next year. I was delighted to receive this book by @noughticulture for Christmas to get me startedð
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Posted on 27 Dec 2020